Motivation

So I am more motivated than ever.

I cleaned out my basement and the kids and I found all of my old photo albums. OK, so some of the clothes were a bit on the embarassing side. Acacia got a really good laugh, but I was really thin.

I found my baby book for when I had Acacia. I recorded my doctor's visit. I was reading it and I wrote that the doctor had thought I was gaining too much weight. I looked at the weight, and it was 118 pounds. UGH! What I wouldn't give to be back to that, and the doctor thought I was gaining too much, imagine what I was before I was pregnant. I was 100 pounds! I know I will never be that again, but I am more motivated than ever to reach my goal and get in shape.

So I know I shouldn't have, but I got on the scale today just to see what I was, and I was so thrilled to see that I weighed in at 135. I am at that point where it will start to get really hard. I hope to keep it up! I hope to have even more of a loss by next week.

Weigh In Week 4

So I was happy with the results this week. I was hoping for more of a loss, but I am glad I am back down to what I was two weeks ago.
Week 0: 140
Week 1: 138
Week 2: 136
Week 3: 140
Week 4: 136
I am really pysched to get down under 135. I hope I can do it. That is when it gets tough for me. It used to be so easy for me, but since I am now over 30 I can not lose weight like I used to. But I am trudging along and I hope to have success. I hope everyone else does too.

Cheating

I cheated today. It did not start off that way. I have been doing really good. I ate some watermelon for breakfast and lunch and I also had a salad. For dinner I had chicken marsala and egg noodles. I had only a small serving. I had an frozen yogurt cone as an afternoon snack. It was very small. It was probably only 200 calories. Now tonight was when I gave into temptation. I had to have some snacks. I know I ate more than I should have, but I haven't cheated in a while, so I needed it. I am hoping it is out of my system for another week. I have to get back on track with my working out. I need some encouragement. I will just have to get motivated again. I didn't feel good this week so I got off track. I start a new week, I want to start it with a new attitude. So here I go. Everybody wish me well. :)

Some Handy Hints

Ok Here are some things I read that might benefit all of us:

1. We all have time to zip up our abs, what you do is suck your stomach in for five seconds, like you are zipping up a pair of jeans. Each time you do it is equal to one sit up. You can do it at anytime, why not use time driving or sitting at you desk doing it. Cool idea! If you squeeze your rear end you will get the same results as a squat.

2. PACE! Get up and walk. While you are talking on the phone, PACE! Pacing for 20 minutes is equivalent to walking a mile. Use the time you are just sitting around to PACE! Every mile you walk you burn 100 calories.

3. Laugh! Laughing tightens your abs. It also gets your endorphins going and that filters out the anxieties that weigh you down. In turn you then get rid of the pounds that weigh you down.

I hope these are some helpful hints. I am going to try them. I am soon going to add recipes for you all to try. They will be good for us, so I am going to try them first to make sure they are actually edible. I made a key lime chiffon pie tonight that has to set over night, but it looks delicious and it is only 130 calories a slice. Great for us all! I will let you know how the taste test goes as soon as I try it.

Weigh-In Day

Ok Here they are
Week One: 140
Week two: 138
Week Three: 136
Week Four: 140
So I am back to where I started from, but as I mentioned on flickr, I think I am bloated! I am going to weigh in again on a different day and see. I hope it is a loss or at least the same as I was last week. We will see, otherwise I feel like calling it quits. I know that is just disappointment talking, so I need encouragement from the peanut gallery. :) Everyone else keep up the good work.

Weigh-In Tomorrow

I have no idea how I will do tomorrow for weigh-in. I have not been working out like I should be. I have to get back on track. I haven't been eating too much. What I have been eating isn't the best stuff, candy has been on the menu everyday. Shawn was home and he knows my weaknesses. I haven't been buying those types of things. Shawn, on the other hand, has been buying those things. UGH!!!! Well, he left for Indy today, so I should be back on track this week. I must be firm!!! I can't always give in to temptation. I also cleared out a bunch of clothes from my closet to give away. It is a real wakeup call when you try to fit into clothes you were in two summers before and there is no way they will fit! That STINKS!!!

Weigh In Week Two

I weighed in last week at 138 from 140. Today I weighed in at 136, so I have lost 4 pounds overall and 2 pounds since last week. It is not an impressive loss, but it is a loss, so I am happy about that. I hope everyone else is reporting good results as well.

New Day

So today was just a really horrible day. I had an extremely bad night last night. It is all on a personal level. As far as the diet is concerned, I did a really awesome job with my eating today. I didn't workout. I didn't have the will power to force myself to go that far. I have to start dealing with my problems in a way that doesn't make me want to eat everything in front of me, or anything I can find in the fridge. I stopped myself from eating by sleeping the majority of the day. That is not a good thing. Depression causes both of these reactions. I have to try to cope better with the problems that arise in life and in marriage. Life really stinks sometimes. The weekend was awesome, as far as just feeling good, the diet was a bust. Now today was the total opposite. I need an outlet for all these feelings. I am trying to use this as that outlet. I am not totally crazy yet. I am trying to work on that. Sometimes I feel like I am going insane and eating is one of my favorite outlets for that. I have to replace it with something else. Something that is better for me. Does anyone have any worthwhile suggestions? I need to get out of this habit of comfort eating. Those of you who know what I am talking about will understand. It is a lot harder that it looks.

Bad Weekend

I am really dreading weigh in this week. I totally indulged this weekend. I was away from home and eating healthy is hard for me when I am away for just a couple of days. You are in a hotel and there isn't access to anything that allows you to make something healthy. I know that is just an excuse. I could have made the effort. It was a tiring weekend and foods that were quick and easy were best. They included lots of junk food. So I am afraid to face the scale. I have to get back on track tomorrow. Back to working out. I am looking forward to that. I enjoy it once I get in the habit of doing it. I hoped everyone else faired better than I did. I look forward to seeing the results, just not mine.

Weigh In

So today I did pretty good. This is going on day three that I have gotten up and left the bedroom. That is a big challenge for me. See, what most of you don't understand is that the main reason for why I eat is from depression. It is hard to understand. Those of you that don't suffer from depression might find it difficult to grasp. That is OK.
The reason it is hard for me to diet is because I eat for comfort, now I don't have that. Those of you that know me personally, know that I also shop for comfort. That is not the wisest thing to do. I have had all my resources pulled from me, so shopping is out of the question. Now I have cut out the eating. So I felt kind of stuck, with no source of comfort.
So I am turning to the outdoors. It is working out so far. I enjoy it. I am also working out. That is really lifting my spirits. Exercise produces a feeling of well-being. Also, I was reading that eating food that isn't good for you, or junk food can cause depression. I am hoping that changing my eating habits will also lift some of the depression. I was able to do two workout videos today. It felt great just to get moving. I am trying to stay real positive about the whole diet issue. I think it will help me in so many ways. I want to thank everyone that is supporting it, I needed this right now.

Weigh In Day

I don't want to do it. I just refuse. Ok. I will. I weighed in at 140 last week. I was hoping to show a difference of five pounds, and not in a gain. I weighed in at 138 this morning. It was not what I was hoping for, but at least it is not a gain. So WOOOHOOO!!! I lost two pounds. I have 13 more to go. My target is 125. We will see if I can get there. I am doubtful. I hope everyone else is having much success.

The Diet

So I am using this as a place to put all my thoughts down. I am not happy about being on a diet. I must say that I feel better though. I needed that. I need to try to get healthier. I actually cooked last night for the first time in I don't know how long. It felt good to do that. I usually just eat junk. I don't find a lot of pleasure in cooking. I am going to try new things and maybe I will enjoy it more. I know it will really help if I eat better. I have been moving more. I am totally honest when I say that some days go by and I have no desire to get out of bed, and so I don't. The activity alone, has made me feel so much better. So I am really getting all pumped up to stick to this and try to shed a few unwanted pounds. The support of all the people involved is really cool. It works so much better when you have a support system. So that is how things are going so far.